PRAISE YAHWEH for people who care about other's enough to leave their homes for a 3 day weekend to help other people grow and process. I wrote this elsewhere and thought I'd post it here too.. felt I said more things that made more sense but probably just too tired to notice I probably said it in the previous post lol

Being here with Eric Guy www.centerforvictory.com and the group is just an amazing experience. On 2 levels. I've been able to be less tense and nervous when it's my turn to talk. I've been able to remain present, and absorb more of the informational part, and also engage in the processing too. And Secondly, I've been able to just spend time, meals, and laughs with other moms who get me, we get one another. I can tell my story and instead of 'wow how do you do it,' or 'are you going to keep her?' they say yeah I know.. and share their story, OR they don't have to say anything! You can feel they just understand. Esp one lady here, Michelle. I've been with her at 4 trainings now, and shes so open and so smart shes an engineer, yet she never makes me feel less, or that she knows more ( although she absolutely does hehe) She remains present, knows just what to say, and also shares freely of her own story. I can completely be myself with her. I get from her what Dr Baer calls 'real love'. The kind that fills me up and allows me to pass it on to my children. Its rare and such a blessing. I normally struggle daily to give real love, unconditional love to my children and DH, and mom, and 'friends' and and and and. Yet I know I cannot give what I do not have. And I feel so blessed to 'get it' here. and this helps ( which is the main and end goal) to be able to accept that unconditonal love and acceptance my Heavenly Father extends to me, I just cannot humanly accept it fully at a gut, state level. So this is my process, and I'm SO blessed to be in it. I just realized so fully WHY I pursue going to these trainings, like, yeah they are all similar.. but each one fills me up a little more. Its no longer about the learning cognitively, its learning emotionally.